BIGhappyTIMEofRAYA

the twin...

big daddy & big mama..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN...

that is what people will say everytime raya is coming...but its the tradition that we can never erased or change...

raya is one of the best moment that i can never foget...never ever...

raya morning..as usual i will get ready straight away after i woke up...

wuhuu excited to wear a new pair of baju kurung pesak...eventhough its just a simple baju kurung but still its the prettiest baju of the day...<in my thought...>

of coz i cannot compared to the fashionista out there but still i feel so happy...super duper happy giler...sangat comfort,fit me well,and tahan lasak...hahaha

kena la puji baju sendiri...but 2 years in a row i'm wearing the same theme of color for baju kurung...pink & green...xkisahlah what pink & what green...still dalam range color tu...huhuhu

nasib baiklah its in the list of my fav color...tahun ni totally colorfull...and cotton season...senang..well we had our family photoshoot after takbir and tazkirah from my bapak...we did the takbir as well...

after that we<the girls only> make our own photoshoot...we did something crazy just to get a 'sengal' shoot...what to do...luckily tak ada orang lalu-lalang...hahaha if not,tak tertanggung malu...

by the way thanks to all my aunties and uncle...coz still bagi $ raya kat saya...wahhh i'm touched...biar pun tanam anggur sekarang i still need $...dapat la gak RM70...hehhe baru raya kedua...its all my rezeki..i didnt ask for it...:)

yeah raya is meaningless to me...this time i never take life for granted...every moment have their own reason why that moment happend....so its not the time yet to think less...i still have to figure it out some things to get the solution...raya is part of it...lets think and think and think...observe the environment...be curiosity...

learn from the best...

tq

qiedah

1 big happy family..

macholah ni konon nyer...:P

Y.O.U...

you...

make me love you more than usuall...

you...

make me go through all the obstacle...

you...

make me give the space into my heart...

kenapa all this happend after quit a long time we've been together...

haish....i keep on thinking...

tak ckup bagus ke diri ini...sangat memeningkan bila pikir all this...

sometimes malas nak amik tau but its all in my mind...tipu la if terus lupakan all the memories...

i just can sit and tarik nafas dalam-dalam so i can control my feeling...berlaku adil pada diri sendiri...give some space for myself and respect apa yang diperlukan badan dan minda...

stick to what i wanna do...to be strong is not easy but to be failure is way too easy...

stand up and shout out loud that i can be better than you thought...you will regret for all the things you have done...and you will regret for left me alone....i can be somebody without you by my side...

i will...i know i will...

one day you will realize that i'm the one..and only for you...

tq

qiedah

jalanTAR..

jalan tun abdul rahman known as jalan TAR...perghh terbaik la...i went there this morning...pretend like i have never been there before...and thinking of tak banyak orang kot this morning coz hujan di waktu pagi membuatkan ramai yang malas untuk bangun pagi...tapi jangkaan ku meleset sama skali...orang yang teramat dan sangat,sangat,sangat ramai...if kat pakistan di banjiri dengan air tapi jalan TAR dibanjiri dengan manusia....dari yang kecil ke yang paling besar...different sizes,different shape and different attitude that can be seen da whole time i was there...

tanpa segan silu,terpaksa meredah lautan manusia untuk mencapai matlamat yang telah dirancang a few days ago...so no regret datang ke jalan TAR...eventhough i have to push myself to grab a gud cotton shawl,but i'm not forgotten my sister...i grab her hand and walk faster than usuall...takut gak la tiba-tiba hilang dari pandangan mata yang rabun ni...nanti mencari plak di celah-celah orang yang teramat ramai...

i dont dare to go all around jalan TAR...sesak..padat..mampat..macam ikan sardin dalam tin...so pusing-pusing kat area tudung jer...at the same time,i'm helping my darling miss a'a to buy her 'anak tudung' yang bermacam-macam warna...kat sabah mahal..so kawan punya pasal,tolong dengan ikhlas hati...there are so many choices...mata rambang...xtau nak pilih yang mana...ikutkan nafsu yang menebal ni memang nak borong semua tapi short of cash,kena la buy apa yang patut...as long as i can buy 1 shawl i'm satisfied enough...<nak sedapkan hati sendiri> 

at last i found a nice grey tone cotton shawl...so i dont give a damn anymore if tak dapat tudung lain...but i'm wondering why suddenly i bought a grey shawl...apa agaknya sudah jadi dengan diri ku...tapi tak pe hati ku gumbira tak terkata...

i spend almost 2 hours at jalan TAR...no point staying there any longer...wat penat mata and badan..arah tuju hanya jalan balik ke rumah...nasib baik naik train kat bank negara..tak la ramai sgt orang...

apa yang paling di banggakan sangat hari ni,aktiviti menderma dapat dijalankan walaupun tak seberapa...the feeling is undescribable...they deserve a better donation but still, its somethig that i can give...

jalan TAR of mine..

tq

qiedah

ALONE...

ALONE...??

 doesn't mean i'm a loser...

ALONE...??

doesnt mean i cannot survive in this life..

i admit that we do need someone else in our life but it doesnt mean i cant live my own by myself..

i'm standing here all alone by myself on my own feet to prove that i can do it..i believe that somehow i still can be  a better person without someone who leave me..who are not interested to be part of my life..they dont need me so do i...i dont need people who will destroy me someday..

well semua itu tak penting..semua tu hanya mengusutkan lagi pemikiran yang dah pasti kusut...its better to search something more important that will give benefit to myself...so throw away all the LOSER thing...delete this word in my dictionary...lets get started a new thing...just do what we want to do...dont bother what people say....

this is how i motivate myself to improve and success as a normal human being...biar sengal tapi jangan sewel...thats what my sister told me...

tq

qiedah

LIFEisEASYwhenYOUthinkITeasy

fuhh its a bit tiring nak jalankan kehidupan yang tak ada hala tuju ni...tanam anggur dah macam tak cukup tanah dah...lepas raya baru nak cari pekerjaan tetap...but i still can manage my expenses...but still not enough untuk orang yang bernafsu kuat untuk ber'shopping...huhuhu but i never think it as a negative thing in my life...life will be easy when u think its easy...so much easier...just act cool macam dunia ni kita yang punya..hahaha

biarla orang nak kata apa pun kat kita but i never ever care...all i knew is i live my life tanpa kacau hidup sapa-sapa pun...:)

ohh i keep on thinking bout the future now...what am i in the future..??who am i??will i be somebody..??all this keep on coming in my head...angan-angan tinggi...nak kerja yang bergaji besar,rumah besar,tapi keta tak mau plak yang besar..gerun lak bawak keta besar-besar ni...:P hubby??yeah that is one of the thing yang slalu berlegar-legar di kotak fikiranku...mintak-mintak jodoh yang baik-baik aja...fuhh...

when life is too easy pun tak syok...but sometimes,think too much pun dapat headache...sakit jiwa raga bila memikirkan benda-benda yang mungkinkan terjadi dan mungkin tak terjadi...aduhh...kekadang,diri ini ada la gak rasa konfius...tapi pura-pura macam paham..huhu 

my life will be better when i have something to do...a routine that i will do it everyday...

tq,

qiedah..:P

STORYofDEGREElife...

We really work hard for our presentation eventhough its look like last minute job but still we did a great job...:)

we will never regret what we have done but want to improve to be a better person in our life...semua orang teruja to end degree life...and new life are waiting for us...

konon working so hard la at this hour...padahal just act to snap a pix of mine...hehehe

I donno what so funny time ni...but we really laughing sampai senak perut...huhuhu

i'm so lucky this time...nasib baik faizul nak tolong  hang my artwork..if not,cp la jawabnya kena panjat wat keja tu semua...:P

so sedih...we have to eat kat depan galeri coz we dont know when is our turn nak kena assess..scary dowh time ni..

Textile student...ni pun xckup gak coz ada yang pergi toilet plak.."hadas besar"..:P

This is my final artwork for degree...

PERSONALITYdisorder

pix bawah ni adalah satu adegan spontan yang memang tak di duga...hahaha she is my darling...that is why i treat and hug her like my darling..i cant let her go...:)

we are meant to be together...echeh...

the TRIO...this is what they called us...macam belangkas...always together where ever we are..sometimes ada gak we do our thing separately tapi most of the time we did together...

hasil pakaian macam ni pun sama-sama pikir...

this is me & atun...from head to toe are sponsored by me...hahaha atun memang trying to hard to look different than usual and it works!!gud job atun....:P

We went crazy with the variety of color...this is what we called PERSONALITY DISORDER...hahhaha time ni kitorang semua ada photoshoot untuk 1 klas..we wanted a different look than usual and this is the result...:P

terpaksa gak la cover malu coz we are at open space..kat tasik plak tu...sape nampak of coz la dia tengok..now i feel malu bila teringat balik all this thing...

FRIENDthatWILLremainASaFRIEND

This is all my closest friends...without friends, i am nothing..i dont need a thousand friends but i just need them who is sincere, understanding, caring, and most important thing is they really want to be part of my life...bukan senang nak jumpa kawan yang betul-betul nak kawan dengan kita because of yourself...Im glad to know them...dorang ni la kawan dunia akhirat...so dont let your friends hurt...love them like you love yourself...

whatAbadFEELING

dari awal tadi im not feeling well...tak tau la kenapa but  there is something make me feel this way...
hati jiwa raga semua tak tenang...but its ok...i have to go through this...:)
tengah hari tadi sangat la bersemangat membuat blog yang baru...i donno where the spirit come from...
macam yang orang slalu kata,usaha tangga kejayaan...that is why berkobar-kobar melayan blog..
just to forget all my misery yang serabut inside my head...

if human beuing have no feeling,tu bukan human la kan...everybody mesti ada perasaan...tak kisah la positif atau negatif seseorang tu...but sometimes i hate the bad feeling...selalu sangat timbul dalam hati ni...haishh...
suddenly teringat kata-kata seseorang yang selalu give me all the strenght to move forward in my life...

hurm if this life ni tak ada smua feeling ni mesti bosan kan...tipu la if in this world ada orang always happy...biar ada venture skit life ni baru kita tau who is our frens & who is our enemy...who is always lend her/his shoulder to cry & bagi pinjam baju untuk lap hingus...hahahaha that part yang paling best...
share all the sadness and happiness together...

well now kena stop dulu all this blog stuff & facebook...have to continue do my crocheting...:P
whatever it is,i still have to face all the obsticle yang bakal muncul depan mata ni...

muahchow!!

newME..

rasa macam something jer when i start this blog thing...
its all because SOMETHING just happend in mylife...jadi wujudlah blog yang sangat baru ni....:)
well where should i start pun xtau coz im still in blur mood...maybe i start with adding a pix of mine...
btw,mine my language..sometimes its all crap...n eja pun terkial-kial lagi..huhuuh
im not perfect dowh...

okie till then....i will drop something in my blog lagi later...

muahchow...:-*